Biopsy Results

A couple weeks ago at my yearly exam my nurse practitioner pointed out a mole on my neck and said,"I can take that off for you." So I decided to have it done and told her I had a mole on my back that I want checked because it was darker than the rest and it popped up in the last couple years (since I was burned badly playing on the beach in Galveston). So last week I had a couple moles taken off and the one on my back biopsied. Today my nurse practitioner called me with the results. They found melanoma around the edge of the mole and I have to go see a dermatologist to have a larger removed. I was in shock. I was at work and I couldn't stop crying. Melanoma? Melanoma is cancer...I have skin cancer. It could be just the one spot, but what if there's more?
I'm feeling a little better after talking with my husband and I went and saw my parents and they took us out to eat. My mom told me not to worry, it's not our kind of cancer. Lol. It's true, breast cancer and colon cancer are the ones that run in our family. Speaking of breast cancer, I have to go next Thursday to do a breast sonogram because I'm high risk and they don't do mammograms for women under 30. So now that they found melanoma I'm even more freaked out about my breast exam.

I'm going to relax and try not to thing about it anymore tonight. I'm all cried out.

Sucess at last with C25K-W9

I just ran for 30 minutes!!!!!!



I'm so excited! I have been doing the C25K program for weeks and have loved it. But when I got to the final week (5 min warmup/30 min run/5 min cooldown), I just couldn't complete it. It was so frustrating because week 8 had me jogging for 28 minutes. So why was 2 extra minutes harder for me? I attempted it multiple times and would have to quit after getting extreme side pain.

This afternoon when I got home from work I googled the issue. I found an article that had some helpful tips on breathing. So I decided to give it a try and focus on that. I'm happy to say it worked! I did start to feel a slight pain creeping up but I knew I only had 3 songs left so I just slowed down slightly and kept on breathing. :)



Here are some other changes I made today that I think really helped me.

• I plugged my iphone into our home stereo instead of wearing it. This helped me because I couldn't look down and see how much time I had left, and I couldn't fiddle with the music.


• I built a timed playlist. I had way to many songs on there before. I also tried some Christian Rock/Rap. Something more uplifting than the angry rock music that I thought was helping me.


• I covered the top of the treadmill so I couldn't see any time, distance, or speed level. I just adjusted my speed for what felt comfortable.


• I prayed. I knew I wasn't going to be able to do this on my own.

I'm off to get dinner going. Another Hungry Girl recipe perhaps? Yes, I'm obsessed.

Weekly recap

I'm sad to say that the momentum of last week fizzled out Sunday shortly after I wrote my last blog. I had a great week & lost over 3 lbs and I indulged a little too much that night...and the next day...and the next. This week I fell apart at night or if I was home alone. Like the calories don't count if nobody sees me eat them!? Then I did something I haven't done since I started wearing my bodybugg-I ate food and didn't log it. I "eyeballed" measurements instead of my usual measuring of EVERYTHING. And just like I expected I weighed this morning and had gained .8. I remember my Weight Watcher leader telling us before if you kind of track your food you will kind of lose weight. Tracking is KEY...and the only way to know what I'm actually eating is to write it all down.

Lately I've been getting a lot of compliments on my weight loss/looks. It has been awesome & makes me so happy! I mean, who doesn't like to be complimented?!? But I think instead of using the compliments to further my desire to work hard I've done the opposite and I know that's no excuse to let myself "splurge" on things. For example this week it was spinach dip with baked tostitos. I found this spinach dip made with yogurt that was only 45 calories a serving...yeah I consumed the entire container by myself in 2 days! Then I tried Kashi Go Lean Crunch with my yogurt and I've had it everyday at least once and sometimes twice. I can't get enough of the Kashi! I've got to get control of myself.

I also wasn't so great with my workouts this week. I wanted to repeat week 8 of C25K and increase my speed a little but everyday I tried to run I quit early. I know I can do it. I'm physically capable of jogging for 30 min straight it's just in my head that I can't do it.
So this week I will try again. My knee was hurting after I did the P90X Kenpo workout tonight so I didn't run. Hopefully I can start back up with it tomorrow.

There were some fun positives things that happened this week.

I had my yearly "woman" exam and my doc was extremely happy at my progress. It was fun. Well, about as fun as that kind of visit could be!

I got to celebrate my birthday with my husband's family and had a great time. My brother in law and I share the same b-day.

We got to go to a large Christian music concert Friday night that included 7 bands. It was awesome & made me feel old because I got a headache 3 bands in and was yawning and sleepy at 9:30.

Saturday I got to spend quality time with my best friend. We got pedicures and went shopping and stumbled upon a new store that super fun. It's an accessories store and it's set up by color. So all of the pink jewelry is grouped together with the pink purses,sandals,cute tops,etc. And so on for every color you can think of. I attached some pics of what I bought. I now think I need to go back and buy more so I can have jewelry and bags for every outfit! I just don't think my husband would go for that.

Anyway I'm just rambling now & I need to go to bed. It was a bad week food/exercise wise but a great week personally. I just hope to get back to my routine this week and be below 170 next Sunday.



1st day finds:some earrings, a heart necklace watch and a Dream,Wish,Believe necklace.






Day 2 purchases with my mom: Hot Orange purse, 2 chunky rings & another pair of earrings.





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Weigh in Sunday & new pics

Well, Sunday morning weigh in came and I'm so glad I stuck with my goals this week because it payed off. I lost 3.4 lbs!!! Yippee! I finally reached my 60 lb milestone (61.6 to be exact).

Here were my bodybugg stats this week.
Daily Burn Goal:2450
Daily Calorie Target:1950
Daily Deficit Target:500

Sun:2411/1790/621
Mon:3096/1870/1226
Tues:2821/1891/930
Wed:2620/1923/697
Thurs:2827/1738/1089
Fri:3251/1783/1468-----My Birthday and highest daily burn and deficit so far!
Sat:2701/1843/858

I hope to have an even better week this week. I will be faced with another birthday celebration on Wednesday. But I've made it through once, I know I can do it again.

On another note, we went to prom last night. It was a lot of fun. I felt awesome in my dress and got lots of compliments from my hubby's co-workers. Most of whom I had not met before. It was the first time I felt completely confident in my appearance. I didn't care if people were looking at me because I felt great! It's amazing how much more fun you have when you don't care what people could be saying or thinking about you.

That's all I have time to write right now. It's Sunday so all I've done is go to church,eat,and visit with my parents so i'm currenty in a surplus. Time to get moving!

Here are a few pictures from this week.


Birthday dinner with my love ;)


These are parents and fellow bodybugg users!

Tomorrow

Tomorrow is my birthday! :) Tomorrow I will be faced with my favorite worst enemy:birthday cake.
Tomorrow I will remember all the great choices I've made this week. Tomorrow I will remember it's just food. The few seconds of enjoyment from that little piece of cake are nothing compared to the feeling I'll have on Sunday morning when I weigh and see a loss. Tomorrow is not an excuse to make poor choices just because it's my birthday.

So here's my game plan. I am waking up early to do C25K BEFORE work. I'll be taking my lunch as usual.They usually do birthdays at noon-which is when I always go to lunch. So I will politely tell them I'd like to save a piece for later. Then when I get back no one will be in there and will forget all about it. Dinner with my family is to a restaurant of my choice. I looked online tonight because I wanted something "different". I looked at Johnnie Carino's menu & the potato soup & baked cheese tortilini I used to always get would be over 1500 calories!!!! Not even including the delicious bread before the meal! NOT WORTH IT! So I'm choosing a local restaurant we like called Scotty P's. I can get a great turkey burger & sweet potato fries and feel good and satisfied.
Then I'd like to get another workout in in the evening just because I think it would be a fun birthday present to myself.

So tomorrow I will turn 26. Tomorrow I will be faced with temptations but I know I'm strong enough to make the right choices.

What will you do tomorrow?

Saying goodbye to Weight Watchers

I've been thinking a lot lately about my Weight Watcher leader. I haven't been back to my WW meeting since I bought my bodybugg and that was about 5 weeks ago. I started going back in 2008, and have had the same awesome leader Donna the whole time. She was even my leader back in 2002 when I was a senior in high school and lost 50lbs the first time(before gaining it all back plus more).
My WW subscription doesn't end until the 16th, so I'm thinking about going in one last time. I feel like I need to tell her how much she has helped me and that I wouldn't be where I am today without WW and her.
I don't want her to think I feel off the wagon and that's why i've been MIA.

I don't know why I'm so emotional about this. Just sitting here in the breakroom I'm crying just thinking about it. But then I think, the last time I went I was 180. Yesterday I was 173. And that makes me happy! I know that just because I'm not going to meetings doesn't mean I'll gain everything back. I'm a different person than I used to be. All the other times when I stopped going, I reverted back to my old habits and that's why the weight came back. This time I enjoy exercising and I enjoy eating right. It has been a healthy lifestyle change, one that I will keep!
All in all I know this has been the best change for me, but it's still hard to say goodbye.


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Easter recap

All day at work I kept thinking of different things to write about. Different things I learned this week, and my game plan for the upcoming birthday weekend. But not it's late and my mind is totally blank!

I'll just write about Easter then. :) My brother and his family came down from Oklahoma. I had a really great time with them. I did a little too much "bonding" with my bro over tortilla chips and spinach artichoke dip...but it was so good! Food still trumps everything at my folks house. I still need to figure out some ways to try to turn this around, and make our time together more fun rather than sitting around watching TV and eating all day.
I was still at my parents house on my usual weigh in day on Sunday and according to their scale i was up .6. I didn't want to log it! I mean I wasn't at home on my regular scale and I couldn't strip down like I normally do because there old school scale is in the garage and the door from the house to the garage has a window. So there was no weighing in the buff.
So i will just wait until next Sunday and be back on schedule.

I found an old picture of my husband and I from Easter a couple years ago and I did a comparison with this years. It's so strange to see myself that pudgy. I didn't feel like I was that huge! Anyway....it's fun to see the results.

Hopefully my brain will return after some sleep and I will be able to put my thoughts down in writing. Goodnight!